Weekend Wrap Up

Friday is the start to my weekends. I helped the boyfriend pack his car to go home for the weekend and get most of his stuff out of his room. Friday never really is that exciting. Usually a lazy day but this Friday I found out I have to sign a petition in order to walk at Graduation because I'm having to take 4 hours in the summer {Internship}. So I went from one department to the next between the building my major is in to the Registrar's at the Student Union. I e-mailed the internship coordinator and asked him if I could enroll in the class even if I didn't have an internship yet and he said yes! Score! I filled out the petition form and got enrolled in the class. That same day I called a lady that I'm talking with about an internship and she said she really needs help with things. I told her I have to have 320 hours to fulfill the 4 credits and she said she will call around and see if other people can take me in as well and help in getting these hours completed. I also have to satisfy 8 out of 14 goals for the internship and I sent those to her as well. She said I can start working this week if I like! So, Monday I will have my advisor sign the petition form and hopefully I can personally hand it to each person it needs to go to in order to see that everything gets signed and filled out on time. 

Saturday was my cousin's wedding. {I almost missed it!} I woke up around 2:00 thinking the wedding was at 7! Man was I wrong! It was at 4:30 and I had to drive an hour and 15 minutes away. To say the least I was running around like a mad woman. I got there with time to spare. Weddings never seem to actually start on time {at least the ones I've been to which is roughly one a year since 2003!} So I didn't miss it and it was a beautiful ceremony. The reception was a lot of fun too. Good food and great times talking with people I haven't seen in years! Plus, a little dancing here and there. 

Sunday is always my lazy day. I usually get up in the afternoon sometime and have my coffee and read blog posts and such. Today I studied for my only final which is today. I'm not too worried about it. I have a border line B in the class and even if I studied everything I probably wouldn't get the grade I need for a B so I'm not stressing about it. 

I hope everyone had a great weekend!

30 Day Challenge Day 14

Your Earliest Memory

I really wish I could say I have a good one for this but I really don't. I lot of the things I've done I've seem to have forgotten. This is why I'm glad we have cameras and video recorders.

The one thing I can remember is my sister got this Big Bird Book for Christmas and we had {still have} this box of blocks. I was probably 4 or 5 at the time and my dad and I built this huge castle with the blocks. I say huge but it was probably only two feet tall. For a little kid that's big though! I do remember we used all of the blocks!

These aren't building blocks like kids today have. These are hard, little, different shaped cement blocks. We had all different shapes. Triangles, squares, rectangles, circles and even ones that had arches in them. These blocks were probably one of my parents and they passed them down to us. But I'm not really certain. 

30 Day Challenge Day 13

Somewhere You'd Like to Move or Visit

There are a lot of places I would like to move or visit. For your convenience and mine I'll make a bullet list and write a few things about some of them.

       Places to Visit                                                   

•  All 50 States                                           
• Canada
• England
• France
• Italy {again}
• Ireland
• Australia
• South Africa
• Spain
• Stonehenge
• New Zealand
• Japan
• Korea
• Fiji

     Places to Live

• Seattle
• Maine
• New York
• North Carolina
• Paris
• Rome
• London
• Colorado

I would love to visit all 50 States like my girl Stephanie. I would love to see what each state has to offer and what makes all of them unique in their own way. One thing I have always wanted to do is to travel around the world. With the launch of The Amazing Race this actually seems possible! I would LOVE to be on The Amazing Race. It would be such a surreal experience.

There definitely are a few places I would love to live. I really would like to move out of Oklahoma {hence the name of this blog} and live somewhere out of my comfort zone. I have visited Maine a handful of times and I love it there. I've only been in the summer but I still love it. Get me in there crazy winter's and I'll probably tell you a different story. I have been to New York twice and love it. No, I don't like the high cost of living but that's to be expected in a city of that capacity. Seattle is a city I have dreamed of visiting. I don't like the idea of rain almost everyday but there's just something that I love about the city that I can't really put into words.

30 Day Challenge Day 12

Bullet Your Whole Day

Well since it's Saturday there's not a whole lot going on.

• Study for my final on Monday
• Start packing to move out of my room
• My cousin's wedding
• Read some samples of books on my Kindle 

30 Day Challenge Day 11

10 Songs on my iTunes {on shuffle}

1. My Heart is Broken- Evanescence Self Titled album
2. Sweet Kisses- Jessica Simpson Sweet Kisses album
3. Red High Heels- Kellie Pickler Small Town Girls album
4. Puddle of Mudd- She Hates Me Come Clean album
5. Jessica Simpson and Nick Lachey- Take My Breath Away (Live)
6. Rumors- Lindsey Lohan Speak album
7. Driven Under- Seether Disclaimer II album
8. Remedy- Seether Karma and Effect album
9. The Other Side- Evanescence Self Titled album
10. Batter Up- Nelly Country Grammar

30 Day Challenge Day 10

Discuss Your First Love and First Kiss

First off I want to say that I can't believe it is already Day 10! I can't believe I'm a third of the way done with this challenge. To say this has gotten my blogging brain going would be an overstatement. This really isn't helping to get the "juices flowing" but it is still fun! Maybe after school is over and I'm at my internship {still pending} I will have more things to blog about.

Anyway! On with today's challenge. I will say that my first love and my first kiss were NOT the same person. {I'm actually sort of re-leaved about that.} They were both in High School though. {Not that any of that matters.}

My first kiss was with my "second" boyfriend when I was a freshman in high school. I put second in quotes because it was one of these things where you aren't really serious but think you might be and I was just a kid and really didn't know any better. My "boyfriend" at the time was a junior in high school so we went to separate schools. We met in marching band. He played the baritone and I was in colorguard. One day we were saying good bye so I could ride the shuttle bus that took the freshmen and sophmores to another school. A friend of mine was yelling out the window as we were saying good bye. She was saying kiss him. {We were a little nervous. We obviously had an audience.} We looked at each other and thought what the hell and we went for it. To say it was magical and romantic is an understatement. I don't really remember it but I'm guessing it was kind of sloppy. First kisses aren't usually the best. It takes practice to get things right.

My first love was a mutual friend of friends I had. We met of all places at my {ex} friends church. He was friends with my friends {ex} fiance. I was going to see the play my friend was in and he just happened to be there. We met said hello and then went on our merry way with different friends. It wasn't until another friend of mine introduced us that we actually started hanging out. This was senior year of high school and we were together for 5 years. 

This was the most serious relationship I had ever had. We hung out as much as possible. But, after high school I moved to Kansas for college and he went to Missouri for Basic Training {He's in the Army.} We wrote a TON of letters and talked on the phone every Sunday {that was the only day they were allowed phone calls.} After he got back from Basic and I finished my first year of college we spent almost all summer together. Then I went back up to Kansas for another year of college. We made it through two and a half rough years and I thought he and I were going to be together forever. We could feel that that was supposed to happen. For my third year of college I went to a State school in Oklahoma and he got shipped off to Afghanistan. The summer before that I went to visit him in Louisiana for 4th of July. We got engaged that weekend. I was in heaven. He spent a year and a half deployed and I went to school. The day he got back I was so happy. I had moved back home and was going to our local Community College. I got to see him everyday since I was living at home. He ended up getting an apartment in 2006 and I moved in with him at the beginning of 2007. I didn't realize how much we had changed in the year and a half we were apart. We were heading in two different directions {even though I didn't want to see it.} I ended out relationship in October of 2007.

The one great thing {person} I got out of this relationship is Buddy. He has been by my side from the first day we I got him. He is the one of the loves of my life. My ex and I never got married. We never actually planned a wedding {even though I did buy a wedding dress. It's still hanging in my closet until the big day comes.} 

I am very, very grateful that he and I didn't get married. We would have been miserable and we both don't believe in divorce so we would have been in it for the long haul. 

I am SO happy with my life now! Even though I still have a ton to figure out, I am happy with my boyfriend and where I am. Things are a little scary with graduation being next weekend and not having an internship yet. But, I know I'm headed in the right direction and on the right path.  

So What! Wednesday

It's So What! Wednesday over at Shannon's and I'm linking up!

So What! if...

• It's dead week and I don't feel like studying for my final on Monday. 

• I really need to do laundry and I'm way to lazy don't want to waste my time waiting downstairs on clothes.
• I'm graduating next Saturday and I'm excited, nervous, scared, don't want to leave my classmates. I've been with these people for 3 years. It's going to be weird not seeing them everyday!
• I am making progress on the internship front but I really just want to have one lined up already and not have to worry about it anymore! {I have a lot of potentials though.}
• I don't write blog posts as cool as this person or this person or as interesting as this person.
• I'm 27 and just now graduating with my bachelor's and yet haven't taken off a year of school.
• It takes some people longer to figure out what they want to do in life. {Even though I still don't know what I want to do. Plus, I would of never met the boyfriend had I taken 5 years to finish my degree.} 

What are you saying So What! to this week?

 

30 Day Challenge Day 9

How You Hope Your Future Will Be Like

I feel like I've already answered this with the 10 year question but, I hope my future is adventurous and fulfilling. I don't know what's going to happen but I would like to be married to my best friend whoever that may be and I want to have kids. I'd want us to grow old together and look back and say I had a great life. I would want to see my children get married and to have children of their own. I would like to travel the world and see all the amazing places you read about in history and school. Even if I don't have a lot of friends I would want them to be people who would drop everything for me in a time of need or to just hang out. I know I would do the same for them.  

I think a lot of people want the same things in life. It just takes some people a little bit longer to get to that point in time.

30 Day Challenge Day 8

A Moment You Felt the Most Satisfied with Your Life

I really don't think that moment has happened for me. 

I think come August when I receive my diploma I will be very satisfied and will know that my years in college were worth it. Also, when I get my first job post college not folding clothes will be very satisfying. To say Interior Design is what I want to do for the rest of my life is a big question. I really don't know what I want to do work wise that will make me 100 percent happy. I guess I will find out when that time comes.

I guess you can say getting Buddy from the Humane Society was very satisfying. I rescued a great dog and he loves the home he's in and the people he's around. I'd say we're both pretty lucky to have each other. 

I'm still growing and getting through the stages that most people my age surpassed 5 years ago. So, I'm a late starter to the game called being a grown up. I'm pretty okay with that. It means I've had 5 extra years to enjoy no responsibility and to live and go where I want. I don't think that's all that bad.
 

30 Day Challenge Day 7

Your Zodiac Sign and if it Fits Your Personality 

I am a Pisces. Born on March 8th. What I've read about my sign is definitely 100 percent me. I'm emotional, I need someone strong, caring and loving to stand by me and help me through things. I am very adaptable. {In my field of study you have to be.} The secret desire of a Pisces is to live their dreams and turn fantasies into realities. {Yup. That's what I want to do. I dream big.}

The boyfriend is a Leo. He seems to be strong emotionally but deep down they are very sensitive. Both of our signs say we are very sensitive and I think this is one of the reasons why we're together. Ultimately we are the same.

 I'm not saying i believe in the astrology stuff but it's always fun to look at what your sign says about you.
 

30 Day Challenge Day 6

30 Interesting Facts

I don't know if I can come up with 30 facts. I'll try!

1. I have a younger sister

2. I'm the oldest

3. I was born 3 months premature

4. It has taken me 9 years to get my bachelor's degree

5. In those 9 years besides getting my Bachelor's I also have 2 Associate degrees

6. I have only lived in two states my entire life

7. Blogging is still very new to me but I want to get better at it

8. My parents could pass as my grandparents

9. My dad and I are 40 years apart in age

10. I have no idea if I'm going to school for the right major

11. I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up

12. I think I'm ready to be more independent and live on my own {not in a college setting}

13. My favorite color is pink

14. I want to travel but don't think I will ever get the chance

15. I want to start a family before I'm 35 but want to have a career first

16. I'm scared of thunder {I have know idea why.}

17. I have no idea where I'll be in 2 months

18. I have had 4 pets in my lifetime

19. My favorite number is 13 

20. I procrastinate {a LOT!}

21. I never feel good enough

22. I put myself down a lot

23. I don't like my ears or nose

24. I have only had 4 serious relationships

25. I would love to live overseas 

26. I want to visit Italy again

27. I like to sleep {maybe too much}

28. Everything I have learned in the past 3 years of college have been repeats

29. If I never would have taken the route I did to get where I am today I would of never met my current boyfriend

30. My dog is my life

 

30 Day Challenge Day 5

A Time You Thought About Ending Your Own Life

I really hope no one would think about or actually end their own life but I know people do. I am honestly not one of those people. Yes, I've been through some rough shit and not wanted to be here {in this moment} but actually to end my own life over it? Nope. The things I thought were so "devastating" at the time are only memories or blips now. I will say that I have currently hit rock bottom and am slowly building everything back up emotionally, physically and relationship wise. It is tough and it's going to be tough for a while. No one has a perfect happy life and if they do they are fake and lying. I'm not perfect and I'm not happy 100 percent of the time. But, I'm learning to put on my big girl panties and get through it. By getting through and experiencing the things I have, have made me a stronger person and have made me less of a coward. I'm still learning and still trying to be strong and independent. It takes a long time for that to happen and I'm just starting. Probably 20 years too late but never the less I'm starting. 
 

30 Day Challenge Day 4

Views on Religion

I don't actually go to church anymore but that doesn't mean I don't have my moments when I feel like I need to be with God. The boyfriend wasn't raised to believe in anything. His parents thought him figuring things out for himself was the way to go. He wasn't fed the bible or that Satan is real. I on the other hand was taken to church and fed the bible. 

I am Methodist and was baptized in 8th Grade after learning about the Bible and without my parents forcing me. They felt it was our choice if we wanted to be baptized or not. Now, even after being baptized and knowing the Word, I even question if there really is a higher power. {I guess I've always wondered this even while going to church but never fully questioned it until I stopped going.} I'm not saying that anyone should give up their beliefs and what they think is right. I'm just saying for me, things have been shown to me that make me question this and that I still have moments where I want to read the Bible. Everyone has their own opinion {isn't that why we live in the United States? Freedom of religion and speech.} I'm just really questioning mine, I guess. I guess this is apart of becoming independent and learning to think and grow on your own. 

 

30 Day Challenge Day 3

Views on Drugs and Alcohol 

Let me first say I have never done drugs. I haven't even smoked a cigarette. I don't have that urge or need to put toxic chemicals in my body. If other people want to do drugs then that's fine with me. It's their life and they can do what they want. I will say that the boyfriend does smoke and I'm actually okay with that. With my first boyfriend I was pissed he started smoking when over seas to get breaks from work. The way he told me he had started smoking was by lighting up a cigarette outside his {then} apartment. I was furious! But now, I don't mind that my current boyfriend smokes. {I like it's the fact that I love him for who he is and not what he does.} He does know that smoking is bad for his health and one day he will quit {when/ I have no clue.} But for now I can deal with his smoking.*

Alcohol might be a different story. What can I say. I like my liquor and wine {beer not so much unless it's a Corona!} I don't drink a lot {maybe one every few weeks, if that.} But there are times when I'm out with the girls and we like to have some beverages and chat. That only happens once in a blue moon now! I have had my moments {boy, have I!} Lets just say it was after a rough break up and to help me get over it a friend of mine took me out every weekend for 6 months. But lets not talk about that.

What are your thoughts on this {these} subject{s}? A little liquor every once in a while doesn't hurt right? 

 

30 Day Challenge Day 2

Where I'd like to be in 10 years

Ultimately I would like to be married, at a well paying job and have at least one kid in 10 years. With the rate I'm going right now this probably won't happen. I would like to stay home with my kids until they were able to be co-dependent until myself or my husband got home from work. So, in order for this to happen I would have to find a job right after college in something that I enjoyed and work my way up so that with mine and my husbands income combined we wouldn't have to worry about making ends meet. But this is probably a very hard feat to come by. That would mean I would have to figure out where I wanted to live in a matter of months, find a job that allows me to move up in the field of work I'm in and to have enough time at that job under my belt so that if I choose I'm able to come back to it after I raise my kid{s}. I say if Bethany Frankel can do it, I can too.

 

30 Day Challenge Day 1

I've decided to do a 30 day challenge. This will definitely get me thinking about blog posts and will get me to write more blogs.

 Day 1 says to write about your relationship

My boyfriend and I have been dating just shy {19 days} of one year. We met in January 2011 at school. I won't go into very much detail about what went on during the four months before we officially became a couple but lets just say he and his previous girlfriend were on the fritz and we started hanging out. They ended their relationship that March.

 To say that our relationship is easy is a huge understatement. We have had plenty of ups and downs {this I would contribute to me and my many exes that seem to know just the right time to come out of the woodwork. Plus, my fair lack of wording.} We still have a lot of things to work on, a major thing being communication. We are both guilty of not communicating. I would say I'm worse than he is but he does have his moments where he's unclear also.

But, I think the main reason why we didn't call it quits after last school year is because we need each other in our lives. We are building a very strong foundation {even if it doesn't seem like it, at least to me it doesn't.} and are there to lean on each other and help each other through testing times. 

Even though the boyfriend doesn't believe in a higher power I think that we were at the right place at the right time. Maybe God had a say is this, maybe not but, I think everything happens for a reason. Even though we have things to work out within ourselves and we haven't completely 100 percent let our walls down, we are slowly getting there. Yes, there have been a few major set backs on my part but I am learning and fixing the things that need to be forgotten and will make me a better girlfriend.

He is so patient with me and that is because we are the same emotionally and we know that each other is special and we don't want to let that go. For right now we are taking one step at a time and taking things day by day.
 

Silent Sunday

Changes

Are things looking different around these parts of the interwebs? I would hope so! Thank you to the lovely Laura at Between the Lines, I have a new blog layout! I now have my very own button! So if you're into showing off what blogs you read on your blog via buttons, go grab my button! I'm SO happy about the header she made for me. Everything fits! You probably remember the old white one that you could some what read well it's out of here! I hope you all stay a while now that things are pretty around here. {More changes to come soon. I hope!}

Easter

Happy Easter everyone. For Easter, some of you go to Easter Service and some have Easter Egg Hunts in your neighborhoods with family and friends. Well, I'm here to tell you of my Easters in the past. {Like way back to childhood.} First off, I will say my parents never got us Easter baskets filled with candy, toys, books or stuffed animals. Now looking back on it they probably weren't raised getting Easter baskets either.

When I was little around 5 or so my parents would take us to Easter Sunday service at church. We would learn about Jesus dying for us and all that other stuff. {I promise I'm not knocking church goers!} Well this ended when I was around 8. After we moved I guess my parents didn't see the need for us to go to church. So every Easter after that until we got "too old" we would have Easter Egg Hunts in our neighborhood and at my grandpa's along with a great Easter dinner.

In 8th grade my parents introduced us into the church again explaining that we weren't baptized as babies and they thought it should be our choice if we wanted to be baptized or not. We {my sister and I} wanted to. So in 8th grade my sister and I along with a friend in our neighborhood took confirmation classes and were baptized. After that I went to many Easter Services with friends.

Today, I don't celebrate Easter. Maybe one day when I have kids I will tell them all about my Easters and start new traditions {Easter baskets} with them but for right now, I'll gather ideas for what i want my kids to know about Easter and file them away.

   

Surprised?

Yes I've posted 3 days in a row! Wow you say??? I would hope so. But now I'm in a slump. Do I write a 30 day challenge? {Minus Wednesdays. Those are for SSW.} or do I take a freaking clue from other bloggers and write about my life {which I'm trying to do. It's a little boring and a lot busy around these parts.} and random ramblings or do I do something else? 

I know this is my blog and I can do or say whatever but, I'm stuck. So to all 7 {yes I lost a follower but that's OK. I'm not here for the followers, I'm here for me. Even though it's nice that people read my crap posts.} of my followers, what would you all like to hear about? Give me some insight/ input. I need it!

So WHAT! Wednesday

It's So WHAT! Wednesday over a Life After I "Dew" and I'm linking up!

So WHAT! if...

• I am still not on a school "schedule" {It's too late now to get on one.}
• I don't have an internship yet. I'm working my ass off to contact people and they just Don't reply back! {This is frustrating!}
• I haven't gone to bed be for 3 am these last two nights. {If I really need to get up for something I will.}
• I haven't done my taxes yet. I have a few more weeks, right???
• even though I make To-Do lists and use my Life Planner constantly, I don't get HALF the stuff done that I need to. {Maybe I should write down ONLY the things I absolutely have to get done that day?}
• I'm excited for graduation but not excited to get back home or the stay in Oklahoma for that matter. Ugh!
• I have a phone interview coming up and I have NO clue what to expect! How does one of these things even work?

What are you saying So WHAT! to this week?

What's in my Makeup Bag

What's in my Makeup Bag{s}

Yes that's right. I have 2 makeup bags {and an area I keep recently used makeup/might use makeup.} Even though I have 2 makeup bags I hardly ever wear makeup. Right now I don't see it as feasible. I go to class 4 days a week, yes, but I'm only in class for 3 hours at the most {and that's only 2 days a week.} To me it's not justifiable.

This is what's in the green Lily Vernon bag.

 My more expensive makeup that I will say I hardly use. I just checked my foundation and I think it's time to toss it. {eek!} A case for foundation, eye shadows and my eyeliner, mascara, concealer, eyeliner brush and foundation brush.

This is what's in my pink makeup bag.

Plus earrings I have no idea where to store. I don't have a permanent home yet and I find this the most useful place {even though I don't wear half the earrings in it.}

This bag has my more "affordable" makeup. Most of this I was gifted, given or bought only one or two items. 

The smaller Stila lip glosses I was gifted plus the Stila cheek color. The bigger Stila lip gloss in bought. The bare minerals was given to me from my mom. The Balm eye shadows was gifted to me and I bought the Kat Von D palette and eyeshadow and Revlon lip butters.

This section of makeup is my "go to makeup" if you can say that. It's the stuff I've worn the most recent. I was gifted the Stila palette and lip gloss and I bought the Too Faced palette and E.L.F. Bronzer. The sample is of eye primer I am trying out to compare against my concealer to see which one I like better.

So that is what's in my makeup bag{s}. Maybe I'll start using all of these more this summer for my internship.

Social Media

{via google}

Wherever I go I see college aged {18-22} kids in grossed in their iPads, smartphones, iPods and whatever else network we have now. {I'm around this everyday!} I'm not saying I'm old {even though I didn't acknowledge my birthday this year.} But, the older I get, more "kids" are getting disconnected from reality/real life. Their "life" is behind a computer. Talking through a keyboard. Not interacting face to face with people. Yes, I know this is the way the future is going but it is INSANE! 

So, with that said, I am taking a break from social media. I'm not going to neglect my blog {even though I hardly post anything. I'm really trying to get better!} But I am going to quit Facebook and Twitter. I hardly tweet anything on twitter anyway. I usually read/see what everyone else is doing but rarely post unless the mood strikes me. {Maybe it's because Twitter isn't easily "accessible". I don't have an iPhone or an iPod where I can check these things every 5 minutes. I'm also not going to give up Pintrest. To me Pintrest is a place to put my ideas and designs. I've even deleted my Facebook and Twitter favorite buttons on my toolbar in Firefox. Out of sight out of mind, right?

So, hopefully I can keep from having the urge to check these things. I don't know how long I'll stay away {if I can} but I will let you know. A friend of mine said she deactivated her Facebook for a month and in all honesty, I didn't even know she had done that! So, even though I look at my News feed and Twitter Timeline everyday most of it doesn't even register.

See you all soon!