30 Day Challenge Day 1

I've decided to do a 30 day challenge. This will definitely get me thinking about blog posts and will get me to write more blogs.

 Day 1 says to write about your relationship

My boyfriend and I have been dating just shy {19 days} of one year. We met in January 2011 at school. I won't go into very much detail about what went on during the four months before we officially became a couple but lets just say he and his previous girlfriend were on the fritz and we started hanging out. They ended their relationship that March.

 To say that our relationship is easy is a huge understatement. We have had plenty of ups and downs {this I would contribute to me and my many exes that seem to know just the right time to come out of the woodwork. Plus, my fair lack of wording.} We still have a lot of things to work on, a major thing being communication. We are both guilty of not communicating. I would say I'm worse than he is but he does have his moments where he's unclear also.

But, I think the main reason why we didn't call it quits after last school year is because we need each other in our lives. We are building a very strong foundation {even if it doesn't seem like it, at least to me it doesn't.} and are there to lean on each other and help each other through testing times. 

Even though the boyfriend doesn't believe in a higher power I think that we were at the right place at the right time. Maybe God had a say is this, maybe not but, I think everything happens for a reason. Even though we have things to work out within ourselves and we haven't completely 100 percent let our walls down, we are slowly getting there. Yes, there have been a few major set backs on my part but I am learning and fixing the things that need to be forgotten and will make me a better girlfriend.

He is so patient with me and that is because we are the same emotionally and we know that each other is special and we don't want to let that go. For right now we are taking one step at a time and taking things day by day.
 

Why????

Why is it that the people you want need in your life have to leave you?

This is my “dilemma” {if you can call it that.} Things are going swimmingly and then BAM! It hits you like a mack truck going 80 down the highway. You have one crazy, insane, maybe ‘this could be the one’ talk with a person and the next day you realize you won’t see them for 3 very long short months and the fact that you’re moving to your hometown while they stay in the town you’re in now makes it that much harder.

I am scared shitless of what is going to happen in these next 3 months, hell, even the next 9 months to a year. I NEVER thought I could {dare I say it} have such deep feelings, aww shit, love someone as much as I do in SUCH a short amount of time! We talk about the past, present AND future! Yes, we have a TON of “what ifs” but who doesn’t???? I can honestly see myself growing old with this individual and I think he can too. Yes, things are very rocky right now but, I know we can make it through this time in our lives and come out stronger and closer than ever on the other side. I know you probably won’t read this, but if you do, I want you to know that I am here 100 percent and would/will do *anything* for you. You are my comfort, my soul, my rock! I love you SO much! In these 4 short months I have gotten to know and grow with you and I want more than anything to continue to grow with you day after day.

So What Wednesday

This week I’m saying So What If…

· I have roughly 30 days left of school and I am SO not ready!!!!

· The boy and I The boy talked last night about where he is in his life right now and I’m really not wanting to hear about it. {I want you in my life NOW!!! Timing is the worst!}

· I have to write an e-mail and have a calculation ready for tomorrow. {This is college and that’s what late nights are for}

· I’m really, *really* wanting some wine and I’m not opposed to sneaking it into my room. {Anyone want to donate to the Maggie Needs Wine Fund???}

· I have a project due in a week and I haven’t started on it. Time management is not my thing so it will get done eventually.

· I’m probably going to spend my Friday sleeping in and being lazy even though I have a million things to do. It’s the start to my weekend and I need at least one day to relax.

What are you saying “So What” to?

As always this is brought to you by Mrs. Dew Shannon over at Life After I “Dew”