30 Day Challenge Day 10

Discuss Your First Love and First Kiss

First off I want to say that I can't believe it is already Day 10! I can't believe I'm a third of the way done with this challenge. To say this has gotten my blogging brain going would be an overstatement. This really isn't helping to get the "juices flowing" but it is still fun! Maybe after school is over and I'm at my internship {still pending} I will have more things to blog about.

Anyway! On with today's challenge. I will say that my first love and my first kiss were NOT the same person. {I'm actually sort of re-leaved about that.} They were both in High School though. {Not that any of that matters.}

My first kiss was with my "second" boyfriend when I was a freshman in high school. I put second in quotes because it was one of these things where you aren't really serious but think you might be and I was just a kid and really didn't know any better. My "boyfriend" at the time was a junior in high school so we went to separate schools. We met in marching band. He played the baritone and I was in colorguard. One day we were saying good bye so I could ride the shuttle bus that took the freshmen and sophmores to another school. A friend of mine was yelling out the window as we were saying good bye. She was saying kiss him. {We were a little nervous. We obviously had an audience.} We looked at each other and thought what the hell and we went for it. To say it was magical and romantic is an understatement. I don't really remember it but I'm guessing it was kind of sloppy. First kisses aren't usually the best. It takes practice to get things right.

My first love was a mutual friend of friends I had. We met of all places at my {ex} friends church. He was friends with my friends {ex} fiance. I was going to see the play my friend was in and he just happened to be there. We met said hello and then went on our merry way with different friends. It wasn't until another friend of mine introduced us that we actually started hanging out. This was senior year of high school and we were together for 5 years. 

This was the most serious relationship I had ever had. We hung out as much as possible. But, after high school I moved to Kansas for college and he went to Missouri for Basic Training {He's in the Army.} We wrote a TON of letters and talked on the phone every Sunday {that was the only day they were allowed phone calls.} After he got back from Basic and I finished my first year of college we spent almost all summer together. Then I went back up to Kansas for another year of college. We made it through two and a half rough years and I thought he and I were going to be together forever. We could feel that that was supposed to happen. For my third year of college I went to a State school in Oklahoma and he got shipped off to Afghanistan. The summer before that I went to visit him in Louisiana for 4th of July. We got engaged that weekend. I was in heaven. He spent a year and a half deployed and I went to school. The day he got back I was so happy. I had moved back home and was going to our local Community College. I got to see him everyday since I was living at home. He ended up getting an apartment in 2006 and I moved in with him at the beginning of 2007. I didn't realize how much we had changed in the year and a half we were apart. We were heading in two different directions {even though I didn't want to see it.} I ended out relationship in October of 2007.

The one great thing {person} I got out of this relationship is Buddy. He has been by my side from the first day we I got him. He is the one of the loves of my life. My ex and I never got married. We never actually planned a wedding {even though I did buy a wedding dress. It's still hanging in my closet until the big day comes.} 

I am very, very grateful that he and I didn't get married. We would have been miserable and we both don't believe in divorce so we would have been in it for the long haul. 

I am SO happy with my life now! Even though I still have a ton to figure out, I am happy with my boyfriend and where I am. Things are a little scary with graduation being next weekend and not having an internship yet. But, I know I'm headed in the right direction and on the right path.  

So What! Wednesday

It's So What! Wednesday over at Shannon's and I'm linking up!

So What! if...

• It's dead week and I don't feel like studying for my final on Monday. 

• I really need to do laundry and I'm way to lazy don't want to waste my time waiting downstairs on clothes.
• I'm graduating next Saturday and I'm excited, nervous, scared, don't want to leave my classmates. I've been with these people for 3 years. It's going to be weird not seeing them everyday!
• I am making progress on the internship front but I really just want to have one lined up already and not have to worry about it anymore! {I have a lot of potentials though.}
• I don't write blog posts as cool as this person or this person or as interesting as this person.
• I'm 27 and just now graduating with my bachelor's and yet haven't taken off a year of school.
• It takes some people longer to figure out what they want to do in life. {Even though I still don't know what I want to do. Plus, I would of never met the boyfriend had I taken 5 years to finish my degree.} 

What are you saying So What! to this week?

 

30 Day Challenge Day 9

How You Hope Your Future Will Be Like

I feel like I've already answered this with the 10 year question but, I hope my future is adventurous and fulfilling. I don't know what's going to happen but I would like to be married to my best friend whoever that may be and I want to have kids. I'd want us to grow old together and look back and say I had a great life. I would want to see my children get married and to have children of their own. I would like to travel the world and see all the amazing places you read about in history and school. Even if I don't have a lot of friends I would want them to be people who would drop everything for me in a time of need or to just hang out. I know I would do the same for them.  

I think a lot of people want the same things in life. It just takes some people a little bit longer to get to that point in time.

30 Day Challenge Day 8

A Moment You Felt the Most Satisfied with Your Life

I really don't think that moment has happened for me. 

I think come August when I receive my diploma I will be very satisfied and will know that my years in college were worth it. Also, when I get my first job post college not folding clothes will be very satisfying. To say Interior Design is what I want to do for the rest of my life is a big question. I really don't know what I want to do work wise that will make me 100 percent happy. I guess I will find out when that time comes.

I guess you can say getting Buddy from the Humane Society was very satisfying. I rescued a great dog and he loves the home he's in and the people he's around. I'd say we're both pretty lucky to have each other. 

I'm still growing and getting through the stages that most people my age surpassed 5 years ago. So, I'm a late starter to the game called being a grown up. I'm pretty okay with that. It means I've had 5 extra years to enjoy no responsibility and to live and go where I want. I don't think that's all that bad.
 

30 Day Challenge Day 7

Your Zodiac Sign and if it Fits Your Personality 

I am a Pisces. Born on March 8th. What I've read about my sign is definitely 100 percent me. I'm emotional, I need someone strong, caring and loving to stand by me and help me through things. I am very adaptable. {In my field of study you have to be.} The secret desire of a Pisces is to live their dreams and turn fantasies into realities. {Yup. That's what I want to do. I dream big.}

The boyfriend is a Leo. He seems to be strong emotionally but deep down they are very sensitive. Both of our signs say we are very sensitive and I think this is one of the reasons why we're together. Ultimately we are the same.

 I'm not saying i believe in the astrology stuff but it's always fun to look at what your sign says about you.
 

30 Day Challenge Day 6

30 Interesting Facts

I don't know if I can come up with 30 facts. I'll try!

1. I have a younger sister

2. I'm the oldest

3. I was born 3 months premature

4. It has taken me 9 years to get my bachelor's degree

5. In those 9 years besides getting my Bachelor's I also have 2 Associate degrees

6. I have only lived in two states my entire life

7. Blogging is still very new to me but I want to get better at it

8. My parents could pass as my grandparents

9. My dad and I are 40 years apart in age

10. I have no idea if I'm going to school for the right major

11. I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up

12. I think I'm ready to be more independent and live on my own {not in a college setting}

13. My favorite color is pink

14. I want to travel but don't think I will ever get the chance

15. I want to start a family before I'm 35 but want to have a career first

16. I'm scared of thunder {I have know idea why.}

17. I have no idea where I'll be in 2 months

18. I have had 4 pets in my lifetime

19. My favorite number is 13 

20. I procrastinate {a LOT!}

21. I never feel good enough

22. I put myself down a lot

23. I don't like my ears or nose

24. I have only had 4 serious relationships

25. I would love to live overseas 

26. I want to visit Italy again

27. I like to sleep {maybe too much}

28. Everything I have learned in the past 3 years of college have been repeats

29. If I never would have taken the route I did to get where I am today I would of never met my current boyfriend

30. My dog is my life

 

30 Day Challenge Day 5

A Time You Thought About Ending Your Own Life

I really hope no one would think about or actually end their own life but I know people do. I am honestly not one of those people. Yes, I've been through some rough shit and not wanted to be here {in this moment} but actually to end my own life over it? Nope. The things I thought were so "devastating" at the time are only memories or blips now. I will say that I have currently hit rock bottom and am slowly building everything back up emotionally, physically and relationship wise. It is tough and it's going to be tough for a while. No one has a perfect happy life and if they do they are fake and lying. I'm not perfect and I'm not happy 100 percent of the time. But, I'm learning to put on my big girl panties and get through it. By getting through and experiencing the things I have, have made me a stronger person and have made me less of a coward. I'm still learning and still trying to be strong and independent. It takes a long time for that to happen and I'm just starting. Probably 20 years too late but never the less I'm starting. 
 

30 Day Challenge Day 4

Views on Religion

I don't actually go to church anymore but that doesn't mean I don't have my moments when I feel like I need to be with God. The boyfriend wasn't raised to believe in anything. His parents thought him figuring things out for himself was the way to go. He wasn't fed the bible or that Satan is real. I on the other hand was taken to church and fed the bible. 

I am Methodist and was baptized in 8th Grade after learning about the Bible and without my parents forcing me. They felt it was our choice if we wanted to be baptized or not. Now, even after being baptized and knowing the Word, I even question if there really is a higher power. {I guess I've always wondered this even while going to church but never fully questioned it until I stopped going.} I'm not saying that anyone should give up their beliefs and what they think is right. I'm just saying for me, things have been shown to me that make me question this and that I still have moments where I want to read the Bible. Everyone has their own opinion {isn't that why we live in the United States? Freedom of religion and speech.} I'm just really questioning mine, I guess. I guess this is apart of becoming independent and learning to think and grow on your own. 

 

30 Day Challenge Day 3

Views on Drugs and Alcohol 

Let me first say I have never done drugs. I haven't even smoked a cigarette. I don't have that urge or need to put toxic chemicals in my body. If other people want to do drugs then that's fine with me. It's their life and they can do what they want. I will say that the boyfriend does smoke and I'm actually okay with that. With my first boyfriend I was pissed he started smoking when over seas to get breaks from work. The way he told me he had started smoking was by lighting up a cigarette outside his {then} apartment. I was furious! But now, I don't mind that my current boyfriend smokes. {I like it's the fact that I love him for who he is and not what he does.} He does know that smoking is bad for his health and one day he will quit {when/ I have no clue.} But for now I can deal with his smoking.*

Alcohol might be a different story. What can I say. I like my liquor and wine {beer not so much unless it's a Corona!} I don't drink a lot {maybe one every few weeks, if that.} But there are times when I'm out with the girls and we like to have some beverages and chat. That only happens once in a blue moon now! I have had my moments {boy, have I!} Lets just say it was after a rough break up and to help me get over it a friend of mine took me out every weekend for 6 months. But lets not talk about that.

What are your thoughts on this {these} subject{s}? A little liquor every once in a while doesn't hurt right? 

 

30 Day Challenge Day 2

Where I'd like to be in 10 years

Ultimately I would like to be married, at a well paying job and have at least one kid in 10 years. With the rate I'm going right now this probably won't happen. I would like to stay home with my kids until they were able to be co-dependent until myself or my husband got home from work. So, in order for this to happen I would have to find a job right after college in something that I enjoyed and work my way up so that with mine and my husbands income combined we wouldn't have to worry about making ends meet. But this is probably a very hard feat to come by. That would mean I would have to figure out where I wanted to live in a matter of months, find a job that allows me to move up in the field of work I'm in and to have enough time at that job under my belt so that if I choose I'm able to come back to it after I raise my kid{s}. I say if Bethany Frankel can do it, I can too.