30 Day Challenge Day 7

Your Zodiac Sign and if it Fits Your Personality 

I am a Pisces. Born on March 8th. What I've read about my sign is definitely 100 percent me. I'm emotional, I need someone strong, caring and loving to stand by me and help me through things. I am very adaptable. {In my field of study you have to be.} The secret desire of a Pisces is to live their dreams and turn fantasies into realities. {Yup. That's what I want to do. I dream big.}

The boyfriend is a Leo. He seems to be strong emotionally but deep down they are very sensitive. Both of our signs say we are very sensitive and I think this is one of the reasons why we're together. Ultimately we are the same.

 I'm not saying i believe in the astrology stuff but it's always fun to look at what your sign says about you.
 

30 Day Challenge Day 6

30 Interesting Facts

I don't know if I can come up with 30 facts. I'll try!

1. I have a younger sister

2. I'm the oldest

3. I was born 3 months premature

4. It has taken me 9 years to get my bachelor's degree

5. In those 9 years besides getting my Bachelor's I also have 2 Associate degrees

6. I have only lived in two states my entire life

7. Blogging is still very new to me but I want to get better at it

8. My parents could pass as my grandparents

9. My dad and I are 40 years apart in age

10. I have no idea if I'm going to school for the right major

11. I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up

12. I think I'm ready to be more independent and live on my own {not in a college setting}

13. My favorite color is pink

14. I want to travel but don't think I will ever get the chance

15. I want to start a family before I'm 35 but want to have a career first

16. I'm scared of thunder {I have know idea why.}

17. I have no idea where I'll be in 2 months

18. I have had 4 pets in my lifetime

19. My favorite number is 13 

20. I procrastinate {a LOT!}

21. I never feel good enough

22. I put myself down a lot

23. I don't like my ears or nose

24. I have only had 4 serious relationships

25. I would love to live overseas 

26. I want to visit Italy again

27. I like to sleep {maybe too much}

28. Everything I have learned in the past 3 years of college have been repeats

29. If I never would have taken the route I did to get where I am today I would of never met my current boyfriend

30. My dog is my life

 

30 Day Challenge Day 5

A Time You Thought About Ending Your Own Life

I really hope no one would think about or actually end their own life but I know people do. I am honestly not one of those people. Yes, I've been through some rough shit and not wanted to be here {in this moment} but actually to end my own life over it? Nope. The things I thought were so "devastating" at the time are only memories or blips now. I will say that I have currently hit rock bottom and am slowly building everything back up emotionally, physically and relationship wise. It is tough and it's going to be tough for a while. No one has a perfect happy life and if they do they are fake and lying. I'm not perfect and I'm not happy 100 percent of the time. But, I'm learning to put on my big girl panties and get through it. By getting through and experiencing the things I have, have made me a stronger person and have made me less of a coward. I'm still learning and still trying to be strong and independent. It takes a long time for that to happen and I'm just starting. Probably 20 years too late but never the less I'm starting. 
 

30 Day Challenge Day 4

Views on Religion

I don't actually go to church anymore but that doesn't mean I don't have my moments when I feel like I need to be with God. The boyfriend wasn't raised to believe in anything. His parents thought him figuring things out for himself was the way to go. He wasn't fed the bible or that Satan is real. I on the other hand was taken to church and fed the bible. 

I am Methodist and was baptized in 8th Grade after learning about the Bible and without my parents forcing me. They felt it was our choice if we wanted to be baptized or not. Now, even after being baptized and knowing the Word, I even question if there really is a higher power. {I guess I've always wondered this even while going to church but never fully questioned it until I stopped going.} I'm not saying that anyone should give up their beliefs and what they think is right. I'm just saying for me, things have been shown to me that make me question this and that I still have moments where I want to read the Bible. Everyone has their own opinion {isn't that why we live in the United States? Freedom of religion and speech.} I'm just really questioning mine, I guess. I guess this is apart of becoming independent and learning to think and grow on your own. 

 

30 Day Challenge Day 3

Views on Drugs and Alcohol 

Let me first say I have never done drugs. I haven't even smoked a cigarette. I don't have that urge or need to put toxic chemicals in my body. If other people want to do drugs then that's fine with me. It's their life and they can do what they want. I will say that the boyfriend does smoke and I'm actually okay with that. With my first boyfriend I was pissed he started smoking when over seas to get breaks from work. The way he told me he had started smoking was by lighting up a cigarette outside his {then} apartment. I was furious! But now, I don't mind that my current boyfriend smokes. {I like it's the fact that I love him for who he is and not what he does.} He does know that smoking is bad for his health and one day he will quit {when/ I have no clue.} But for now I can deal with his smoking.*

Alcohol might be a different story. What can I say. I like my liquor and wine {beer not so much unless it's a Corona!} I don't drink a lot {maybe one every few weeks, if that.} But there are times when I'm out with the girls and we like to have some beverages and chat. That only happens once in a blue moon now! I have had my moments {boy, have I!} Lets just say it was after a rough break up and to help me get over it a friend of mine took me out every weekend for 6 months. But lets not talk about that.

What are your thoughts on this {these} subject{s}? A little liquor every once in a while doesn't hurt right? 

 

30 Day Challenge Day 2

Where I'd like to be in 10 years

Ultimately I would like to be married, at a well paying job and have at least one kid in 10 years. With the rate I'm going right now this probably won't happen. I would like to stay home with my kids until they were able to be co-dependent until myself or my husband got home from work. So, in order for this to happen I would have to find a job right after college in something that I enjoyed and work my way up so that with mine and my husbands income combined we wouldn't have to worry about making ends meet. But this is probably a very hard feat to come by. That would mean I would have to figure out where I wanted to live in a matter of months, find a job that allows me to move up in the field of work I'm in and to have enough time at that job under my belt so that if I choose I'm able to come back to it after I raise my kid{s}. I say if Bethany Frankel can do it, I can too.

 

30 Day Challenge Day 1

I've decided to do a 30 day challenge. This will definitely get me thinking about blog posts and will get me to write more blogs.

 Day 1 says to write about your relationship

My boyfriend and I have been dating just shy {19 days} of one year. We met in January 2011 at school. I won't go into very much detail about what went on during the four months before we officially became a couple but lets just say he and his previous girlfriend were on the fritz and we started hanging out. They ended their relationship that March.

 To say that our relationship is easy is a huge understatement. We have had plenty of ups and downs {this I would contribute to me and my many exes that seem to know just the right time to come out of the woodwork. Plus, my fair lack of wording.} We still have a lot of things to work on, a major thing being communication. We are both guilty of not communicating. I would say I'm worse than he is but he does have his moments where he's unclear also.

But, I think the main reason why we didn't call it quits after last school year is because we need each other in our lives. We are building a very strong foundation {even if it doesn't seem like it, at least to me it doesn't.} and are there to lean on each other and help each other through testing times. 

Even though the boyfriend doesn't believe in a higher power I think that we were at the right place at the right time. Maybe God had a say is this, maybe not but, I think everything happens for a reason. Even though we have things to work out within ourselves and we haven't completely 100 percent let our walls down, we are slowly getting there. Yes, there have been a few major set backs on my part but I am learning and fixing the things that need to be forgotten and will make me a better girlfriend.

He is so patient with me and that is because we are the same emotionally and we know that each other is special and we don't want to let that go. For right now we are taking one step at a time and taking things day by day.
 

Silent Sunday

Changes

Are things looking different around these parts of the interwebs? I would hope so! Thank you to the lovely Laura at Between the Lines, I have a new blog layout! I now have my very own button! So if you're into showing off what blogs you read on your blog via buttons, go grab my button! I'm SO happy about the header she made for me. Everything fits! You probably remember the old white one that you could some what read well it's out of here! I hope you all stay a while now that things are pretty around here. {More changes to come soon. I hope!}

Easter

Happy Easter everyone. For Easter, some of you go to Easter Service and some have Easter Egg Hunts in your neighborhoods with family and friends. Well, I'm here to tell you of my Easters in the past. {Like way back to childhood.} First off, I will say my parents never got us Easter baskets filled with candy, toys, books or stuffed animals. Now looking back on it they probably weren't raised getting Easter baskets either.

When I was little around 5 or so my parents would take us to Easter Sunday service at church. We would learn about Jesus dying for us and all that other stuff. {I promise I'm not knocking church goers!} Well this ended when I was around 8. After we moved I guess my parents didn't see the need for us to go to church. So every Easter after that until we got "too old" we would have Easter Egg Hunts in our neighborhood and at my grandpa's along with a great Easter dinner.

In 8th grade my parents introduced us into the church again explaining that we weren't baptized as babies and they thought it should be our choice if we wanted to be baptized or not. We {my sister and I} wanted to. So in 8th grade my sister and I along with a friend in our neighborhood took confirmation classes and were baptized. After that I went to many Easter Services with friends.

Today, I don't celebrate Easter. Maybe one day when I have kids I will tell them all about my Easters and start new traditions {Easter baskets} with them but for right now, I'll gather ideas for what i want my kids to know about Easter and file them away.